DEAR DIARY

MISERABLE week of training new employees and nightmare scheduling, girls! But this weekend I went to a sick ass comix reading and a youth art market and bought some zines made by children so that was pretty cool even if I'm a walking husk ♡

I broke I fucking cracked I went back to the sex club on a drunken whim and I still love it 😭 I just like a public space where it's like not a big deal to be openly sexual and not even as an exibition thing!!! as fun as it can be to exchange furtive moments in a dive bar booth or in the corner or something it's like... idk I just appreciate not having to always be on alert anticipating having to cut it short because somebody might see too much. Putting on a show is a bonus really. Whatever!!!! Also I won a game of pool

"I liked the two femmes who came in together and played pool. It was like a porn :)"

I had nobody to talk to all day today while I was working a long shift ~~and was hopped up on a pussy-pink monster~~

so I spent the whole time meditating on being a slut ♡
it's barely even a conscious choice for me. basically just pure impulse. I'll make out with anyone who asks unless I'm like

DEEPLY biased

against them before they approach me (men with beards, reddit auras, cops/cop allies etc). Usually I'm like not even into it but it's like a dare yknow? Tbh the average dare is scarier/feels like higher stakes than making out with or fucking some rando but the rush of taking someone up on the "challenge" feels sooooooooo good. So I keep doing it! And surprisingly, only regret it a small percentage of the time.

One time a friend gave me a dollar to go make out with a ~straight boy who was part of our party crew that night and of course I did (and then a few months later he tried to hit me up after his girlfriend broke up with him. lol.)

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