DEAR DIARY

yaaaaaay it's
I can't even tell if I'm in or about to enter an episode tbh it's just kinda bad across the board for everyone

I haven't had a crush or made a really charged connection with anyone in a while so I'm like CRAVING an obsessive codependent fem4fem type situation that will ruin my life more directly than just aimlessly spiraling out and quitting my job/getting a totally new one like I usually do. I want to get caught up in unhinged lovesick behavior and caffeine abuse again I miss the rush!!!! And I'm hotter now I can do it BETTER this time!!!!!!